Day 23 : The Clearing Skies

To everyone who came out and made this time round a memorable one, thank you.
To everyone who remembered this time round, thank you.
To everyone who showed their care, thank you.

They say the best things in life are free.
And getting a second chance from you are my wishes come true
A second chance at setting the record right.
A second chance without barriers.
A second chance at walking with you.
A second chance at knowing ;
you're the one I wake up to every morning,
and have in your eyes that gleaming burst of sunshine
you're the one I close my eyes to every night,
and have with your eyes that falling dust from the stars
A second chance at loving you.

If I had a second chance at you, this would be it.

Pero Me Acuerdo Ti.

Day 22 3/4 : 22 Things That I Wouldn't Be Getting This Birthday

There's always been lists of things people want for their birthdays, things people want for Christmas. Here's my version of the list. Come to think about it, it's more realistic than that of what I might want. Now wouldn't that be a jolly occasion?

22 new shirts
21 ties
20 books on philosophy
19 days in Japan
18 outings with Erika Sawajiri
17 hours of making out
16 bottles of Export Gold/Lion Red
15 pillows to sleep on
14 new suits
13 members of the Family present at my dinner
12 cds of my favourite bands
11 cans of Lynx
10 of my favourite people in Kuching
9 days in March I wasted away
8 different cars of my own at once
7 days in the Vatican with the Pope
6 packs of Genti
5 pairs of shoes
4 seasons
3 kids of my own; Ethan, Faith & Gwen
2 honest chances
1 true love

Listen to this:
1) Matt Kearney - Won't Back Down
2) Joshua Radin - The Fear You Won't Fall
3) Playground - Corner
4) Usher - Separated
5) Will Ferrell - Afternoon Delight

Stay beautiful Kuching. Live every dream.

Day 22 1/2 : The Reciprocated Love

If one had actually perused through my profile under 'the friendster' page, one might have come across my personal section of 'Who I Want To Meet'. Here's what I had to say:

- .the angel in disguise.the comfortable silence.the flawless ways.the defining moments.the inspirational encouter.the thoughtless words.the criminal actions.the perfect moments.the beautiful face.the despaired soul.the exploding smile.the pure heart.the humbled mind.the winning ways.the outrageous emotions.the outbursting laughter.the priceless possession.the unplesant sights.the complimenting music.the endless drama.the favourite drink.the dream come true.the morning face.the nocturnal darkness.the blinding light.the guiding star.the out-reaching hand.the stroke of fate.the serendipitous collision.the understanding one.the careless whisper.the falling stardust.the radiant rain.the stormy seas.the appeasing touch.the obscuring variations.the delirious character.the renewing sublimation.the rainbow's end.the eternal bond.the sparkling eyes.the limber caress.the clearing skies.the bona fide nature.the reciprocated love. -

Innit a fucking long list? It's all the compounded moments put together, all good and bad. It's what I desire most. And the last of it, entitled above, has never been the case. I personally feel that at times, I am an EDS (emo-dump-site), and without having that reciprocated; what more to can I utter a word about love? Am I being too nice? Am I being not the rascal enough? Bad boys tend to attract good girls. Issue-packed chicks tend to attract good boys. And I'm smacked right in the middle of the whole debacle. Bullocks ~ There so many and yet I only need 1. There are too many and yet I am lost in between reality and dreams. And where is she? How in the world am I to meet her when I don't even get a chance in allowing her my very best? The most intriguing part about all this, is that people are cheating on their spouses, their partners in life. (Please note that in the instance of looking, there is no harm done. Applicable to both sexes.)

For the longest time that my heart could remember,
All I could ever want was to belong.
For the darkest nights of turmoil and unending pain,
All I would only know was the sorrow.
Empty promises I've ever made,
Makes me the delirious character;
Another soul torn between my dreams,
Find my efforst nothing more that a mere stream.
Now I am but a man; only longing, still trying in attaining.
Now I am known for my ways of nothing, merely dreaming.
All this I brought upon myself, all this I carry with myself.
I write knowing the emptiness life is without love.
And my ways of living has taught me all that is planned comes from above.
That was when I saw 1 litre of tears,
and taught myself to fight my fears.
That what when I chose not to run,
And I learned to sing a song to the sun.
That was when I came across you.
My acts might not possibly come true,
And though this heart has been clouded before,
Though many have seen my tears pour,
Your smile wipes all of it away.
Your laughter clears the dark skies.
I have no idea of who you are or how you are.
And I can't possibly imagine you and I at par.
But I long to be able onday,
And when looking in your eyes, say,
That, "It's nice. Really nice to meet you finally."
That, "It's probably an infatuation but I admire you truly."
Because life is so short and we only have one to live,
Though it will be tedious and tought but for you, I'll try for all I'll give.
So thank you.
Thank you for showing me how life can be so beautiful.
For through you I see the marvel of God in His definition of beautiful.
Thank you for smiling.
Thank you for laughing.
Thank you for singing.
Thank you for crying.
Thank you for acting.
Thank you for your time.
And most of all thank you for being you.

If a life is without dreams, what point is there to that life?
If a life is without love, what happiness is there to speak of?
Yume wa anatawa.

Listen to this:
1) Joshua Radin - Someone Else's Life
2) Alanis Morrisette - Perfect
3) Brandy - Have You Ever?
4) Power Station - Na Ciu Che Yang Ba
5) Michael Buble - Home

Stay beautiful Kuching. Live every dream.

Day 22 1/4 : All Hazed Out

Yes the topic spells it out. Over the past 2 months, the citizens of Kuching have been breathing particles. That's right, particles; from the constant burning and deforestation in search of new areas for plantation. This devious act, of keeping the world and it's environment greener, has definitely gone down the drain. From my personal observation, I've come to noticed that the citizens are surely feeling the effects of the haze. People are starting to cough, and those who have been sick prior to this, are falling sick once more. Everything from exercising to the desire to go to work has been affected tremendously. What I must stress here is that the morale of the citizens have plummeted.

Can we do without the burning? Can we find other means of clearing? Cost may be a huge factor of consideration here but it is by any means not the best form of lowering expenses. We are one world, we are one country, we are one people.

By being human beings with feelings, are we that inconsiderate to others and their well-being? Why isn't anything being done to ensure that the air quality in Kuching and the other places affected, improves? What did we vote for? What did we enrol ourselves to?

Surely, having to live in deteriorating conditions wasn't one of them. I want something done in making this situation improved and having this prevented from occurring in future. Since the 90's it has gone on, we have laws that restrict open burning, and I must assert, are they being enforced? If they are, I wouldn't be bothered putting up this post. Thus far, in my opinion, the actions of the authorities and that of the constitution has been dubious.

I am a proud Malaysian, and I am a proud Sarawakian. But how can I be proud of a nation who doesn't bother about the health and welfare of her natives? Yes, I must agree that it will affect the livelihood of others. We are a 'developing' nation, I agree, but this is no reason to hide behind the word 'developing'. Before we reach the status of a 'DEVELOPED' nation, we must first ensure that our people are strong enough, more crucially, healthy enough to fight for the cause : Our Vision 2020.

Let us not point our fingers at other nations. They contribute to this as well, however, until we can first settle our own issues, and provide for a better and healthier environment,

let's keep this within our beloved nation.

I say I need my fresh air.

I say I love my Kuching.

I say I love my Malaysia.

What say you?

Listen to this:

1) Nicole Nordeman - Why

2) Kaoru Amane - Stay With Me

3) Schuyler Fisk & Joshua Radin - Paperweight

4) Kaoru Amane - Taiyou no Uta

5) Remioromen - 3gatsu 9ka

Stay beautiful Kuching. Live every dream.