Day 16 : Top Ten

It's always been about poetry and the expression of myself through them, most of it, attained from the sheer pleasure and relentless efforts of artistes in their composing of music and at the same time writing such beautiful lyrics that actually enhanced my needs and wants of writing. The list would be endless if I were to list each and every song that related so frequently to situations I've been placed in. Thus, I've listed down 10 of the best (in my opinion).

1) 3 Doors Down - Here Without You
This song was often played in the summery days of KT6652Q, my ride that got me through rain and water retention here in Kuching. Played on a tape, yes a tape, this song brought me many memories. One of the main reason it appears on the list is due to the fact that whenever I listened to it, I was with the people I knew I would miss most. My mum, dad and more importantly the Family. Capo Cheese, Capo Beans, Capo Mayo, Capo Tingy and the Don. Departing Kuching then was something I had always wanted, but at the same time I knew that a large portion of my heart remains beautifully here and this song whenever played over my lappy would round me up with them, singing to the song and when I was with them it was my way of telling them, when I was abroad that 'I'm here without you.'

2) Live - Lightning Crashes
If I were to chart out the rhythm of this song, it would start out at below the 0 line and as the song proceeds, the rhythm progressively increases. A nice blend of all the instruments played throughout the song. Each of them introduced slowly, yet so robustly constructed.The vocals of the song presents a melancholic mood to the whole tune and in some ways impulsive. Showing that from something small that might occur, a happening could eventually turn out to be an issue. I am somewhat like that. Small and tiny things do matter, and it keeps me on my toes. Trying as best as I can not to overlook such matters.

3) Silly Fools - Nai Wa Ja Ma Lor Gan
This is a thai song and as put by my good friend, Ake, the band would best be dubbed as Thailand's very own Aerosmith. This song was first introduced to me at the Basement in Dunedin, when I was acquainted to that of the illusionized and mellowed. In that stage, Raz, a key member to the entourage would play this song and I can still recall vividly, myself seeing the pagodas in Thailand. I would envision myself sitting on the trading boats by the Chao Phraya and just experiencing the tremendous beauty Thailand had to offer. The adrenaline rush acquired when the vocals carried the song from its chorus to the powerful bridge left me overwhelmed. Besides having a very solitude and inspirational mood to the song, Ake also happened to assist me in defining the meaning of the song. It simply went 'I thought you said you'd remember me.'

4) The Verve - Freshmen
Concocted with subtlety, the song is about second chances. 'Freshmen' is known to be a 1 hit wonder. On many levels it is. But this is neither here nor there. Freshmen was carved out from the youth and how it turned out to be the ruins of society. Punished for the things that they did, and for the lives taken during their course of pursuing life. It splendidly makes sense in the world today where we, citizens of this good earth would be skeptical towards those who have made wrong decisions and were made to suffer because of them. We have to face it, in life, we are not given second chances. Outcasts are made out of those who commit a sin, a crime, an act. However, religion, especially that of the Christian teachings tells us to forgive. Jesus himself gave many people second chances told them to repent and stay away from their sins. We are not Him, but if we were to act in His light, His forgiving touch, imagine how beautiful this world would be. Imagine.

5) Utada Hikaru - Eternally
I adore the song for the sole reason of believing in eternity and having faith that one day I might come across another who feels the same.
Another who would always be striving to achieve her dreams, another who would love unconditionally with another.
Another who would care, support and even when it's beyond fathom, tolerate for love and love alone.
Another who would make me laugh, another who would make me do the things I never thought I could do.
Another who would come to terms that 2 will always be stronger than 1, and like a team braced against the tempest of the world, prove that love prevails as the Guiding force.
Another who would say, 'My heart's yours, eternally.'

6) Michael Bolton - Go The Distance
Ok this may seem cheesy to a few, but I must admit, whenever in a down and very defamed situation, where all hope seems to flicker in the winter nights, this song plays perfectly. A soundtrack to 'Hercules' the Disney Production, it gives for great inspiration often found nowhere. It helps with the thoughts, "I can make it happen." "Nothing stands in my way." To be very honest no one really can provide better inspiration and thought other than oneself. It is through these rough and low times that an individual provides for definition of oneself. He or she then finds out where strength is drawn for. Mine is from the Boss above. The Triune God. Father, Son & Spirit.

7) Jewel - Foolish Games
From where I stand in terms of frequent 'wantings', games are often played and always, I am the player sidelined. I've given as much thought and love to a few individuals that I believe it was all taken for granted. I can never seem to achieve that oneness with another. When will it come together? I then realised that it wasn't the question of things coming together, rather it was the insinuating demeanors done by either side of the equation in enhancing the whole dating scenario, only to find the couple travelling in circles, achieving nothing. This does not apply to all but it has well been rubbed onto me.

8) Goo Goo Dolls - Name
We often say 'This stays with me.' But it comes to the different end of the spectrum when it comes to living up to words. The song provides for a very scandalous moment between that of two persons, coming together for a stealthy but yet enjoyable time together. Making this interesting would be the fact that ignominy would be best avoided. It speaks of what I was a long long time ago. What my actions of scandalous repartee would often lead me into sin but yet again it was something I enjoyed. I was simply subjected to whim. Whenever I reminisce on the song it would then provide for the many times the Capos mentioned of the detriments that come along with my acts and one fine day, when things were shaded and grey I ended this abuse of both parties. From these consequences I attained a different level of how things are to be. More importantly I know of how things will be and how things should be.

9) The Perishers - Sway
Now this song gives for similar circumstances I've been through time and time again. It would personally go out to Stardustt whom I've thought to be my greatest love but she proved everything was the opposite and mentioned to me that it was probably the constant time I spent with her, and how often our chats would be left me in a very euphoric state and in that state having tricks played to my mind like a lullaby.The vocals, tune and lyrics blend so maliciously it hurts to even think about the song. But it is from the song that I finally can derive what should have been said when I had no way of knowing. Well, besides her, there are others unmentioned and unopposed and maybe it's true what Stardustt mentioned, I did spend too much time with her and I got too comfortable with the fact that she was always around and having her away wasn't easy so I had to 'pop the question' and progress to a whole drama fiasco. Or maybe she was suppose to be 'the one'. Who knows. Well as the lyrics go;

"I've always been a dreamer,
I've had my head up in the clouds
Now that I'm coming down
Won't you be my solid ground?"

10) Fuel - Falls On Me
My favourite song of all time. I simply can't find the right words to express the song, so in honour of the band, Fuel, I'm posting its lyrics.

I've seen you hanging 'round
This darkness where I'm bound
And this black hole I've dug for me
And silently within with hands touching skin
The shock breaks my disease
And I can breathe

And all of your weight
And all you dream
Falls on me, it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
And the light you bring
Falls on me, it falls on me

Your faith like the pain
Draws me in again
She washes all my wounds for me
The darkness in my veins
I never could explain
And I wonder if you ever see
Will you still believe

And all of your weight
And all you dream
Falls on me, it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
And the light you bring
Falls on me, it falls on me

Am I that strong
To carry on
I might save my life
I might save our world
Would you save me?

Stay beautiful Kuching. Live every dream.