Day 11 : Finally
Another year has passed me so quickly since the last time I decided to tell her how much I would like to be a part of her life. It was entitled ‘Home’, thus making her my new home. A home I would return to everyday to hold tight, to kiss, a home I’ll learn to love. In actual fact I did, and it was probably one of the greatest times I had in a while. She was my ‘first’ and to have a cycle end with the first girl you thought you’d spend your entire life loving, is having been given another chance. Having been told, the moment you’ve been waiting for as long as your teenage life, add to that your adult life, and is here and now.
Matters were left as they were after I told her how I felt, as I was away, I sent her a clip of myself flipping notes, each one bringing her closer and closer to my point, telling her how much of a privilege it would be to have her in this broken heart.
Her response, “I don’t know what to say.”
Love to her was about repayment, and she didn’t know how to ‘repay’ that love or feelings I’ve placed out. I was in a certain state of dismay for a while, but luckily enough for me; I had shoulders to cry on. I came home, with my main intentions accomplished and I was here to face my past. She was part of that past, a past I knew I couldn’t share with.
I only came to finding her in my arms and watching her sleep probably the next best thing. That was short-lived. I dwelled in the darkness for quite a while. It was the trip to KL, being with the Don and having one of the best Captains around. I do not doubt the fact that at times I was very much bothered about the whole circumstance and how she wouldn’t let me in all the way. That probably was most hurtful.
This all ended, and I’m glad to admit that having the Don around, two of my best men beside me made all the difference. Looking back I now can best reflect on the moments where my family and all of the Familia were there night and day.
They made the cake great. Knowing I could start my career at a new place makes the cake filled with fresh-picked strawberries. Having to be almost certain, that I’ll be able to see beauty once more, tops this great cake with all the icing, cream, and condiments.
Finally-after all the complaints, all the tears, and the sleepless nights, I can look to live fully again and have the restraints I had for the past 4 months removed.
Finally – Freedom once more.
I’ll remember this moment, I’m going to cherish it and when I’m thrown with a down in future, I’ll be able to look back and know moments like these provide for definition.
Listen to this:
1) Augustana – Boston
2) James William Hindle – Love You More
3) The Replacements – Here Comes A Regular
4) Strays Don’t Sleep – For Blue Skies
5) The Fray – How To Save A Life
Stay beautiful Kuching. Live every dream.
Matters were left as they were after I told her how I felt, as I was away, I sent her a clip of myself flipping notes, each one bringing her closer and closer to my point, telling her how much of a privilege it would be to have her in this broken heart.
Her response, “I don’t know what to say.”
Love to her was about repayment, and she didn’t know how to ‘repay’ that love or feelings I’ve placed out. I was in a certain state of dismay for a while, but luckily enough for me; I had shoulders to cry on. I came home, with my main intentions accomplished and I was here to face my past. She was part of that past, a past I knew I couldn’t share with.
I only came to finding her in my arms and watching her sleep probably the next best thing. That was short-lived. I dwelled in the darkness for quite a while. It was the trip to KL, being with the Don and having one of the best Captains around. I do not doubt the fact that at times I was very much bothered about the whole circumstance and how she wouldn’t let me in all the way. That probably was most hurtful.
This all ended, and I’m glad to admit that having the Don around, two of my best men beside me made all the difference. Looking back I now can best reflect on the moments where my family and all of the Familia were there night and day.
They made the cake great. Knowing I could start my career at a new place makes the cake filled with fresh-picked strawberries. Having to be almost certain, that I’ll be able to see beauty once more, tops this great cake with all the icing, cream, and condiments.
Finally-after all the complaints, all the tears, and the sleepless nights, I can look to live fully again and have the restraints I had for the past 4 months removed.
Finally – Freedom once more.
I’ll remember this moment, I’m going to cherish it and when I’m thrown with a down in future, I’ll be able to look back and know moments like these provide for definition.
Listen to this:
1) Augustana – Boston
2) James William Hindle – Love You More
3) The Replacements – Here Comes A Regular
4) Strays Don’t Sleep – For Blue Skies
5) The Fray – How To Save A Life
Stay beautiful Kuching. Live every dream.
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