Day 35 : The Day You Left

The day you left you took every part of me and left me stranded aimlessly without desire, without passions, without emotions. I felt like the bones after all its meat has been ripped off, I felt like a dish, after it was done with, left aside to be swept away by the hands of strangers. I felt meaningless.

The day you left, I watched all my dreams and thoughts of us smashed right in front of me, it was how I got to know how karma had its way with things. Now broken and applauded for all the wrongs I did, I stood amidst the lives of many soulless, like a stone; still in time, movable by none.

The day you left I saw all those around me held my head up high and shared the darkness with me. They; like how they've always been; were angels who emersed from the crowded light. Bit by bit, they gave me my life back again, without them I would have lost all hope in being here today, without them I would have stayed remorsed.

The day you left, my mum saw the pain in her child's eyes and said, "My dear son, for all the times you've rushed yourself and things, still I saw you loved her very very much. My dear son, for all the things you've done, and for what you're going through now, is it worth it?". The very next week they sent me paid for my holiday. The things they put up with everyday and how they lived for me, I cannot even begin to describe.

The day you left I was given the opportunities to look around me and notice the wonders of life, the tears shed by the world for it's many sins, but most of all, was how under-appreciative I've been. My life has been graced with so many wonderful aspects that I had forgotten my main source of strength. Blurred by my earthly desires, drenched in my passions of the flesh I strayed. But yet He still sustained my very being day and night; till this moment.

The day you left was never easy and even now sometimes it hurts so badly knowing something beautiful would have, could have and should have been. But it was from the day you left that I learnt to turn my vengeance into new-found happiness, my pain into enlightened appreciation, my torment into a driven purpose, my hatred into forgiveness, my unwillingness to experience into imbued strength, courage and wisdom and most of all my dark heart into one who's ready yet again. It's been a year since you left babes, and the scars are there as proof that I'm hurt but without them I would have never been the man I am today. Thank you.

'We all make mistakes, and often people are judged by those mistakes. I believe the true measure of a person lies in his or her willingness to right the wrongs.'

- Denny Crane -